June Update 2018

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Part of a series:
Another reminder of mortality
Day 4 - Tumor in my liver
First week - tumor in my liver
Second week - tumor in my liver
Third week with liver cancer
Liver cancer, surgery
6 weeks post-op, news time
Cancer update
Liver cancer, Post-op 2
June Update 2018

July update, 2018
Chemo day 1 and 2

Chemo first cycle

So another update. Noticed that I didn't post any 'My Current Plan' post for May, and I don't really have anything breaking for June.
Looking back I invested that the may building brick in the bank... And I did the same for June.

More important stuff then investing (that still needs to go on, but not the top priority in my head) is the cancer progress.

So, today it is 2 weeks and 1 day since I went into surgery for the second time this year. Hopefully they got the last part of the tumor this time... They were not 100% sure last time, hence the second surgery. I will not receive any news regarding that until the analysis is done in a couple of weeks.
In the meanwhile the cut is healing, a little worse complications on the actual cut compared to last time. Have 3 holes that do not want to heal, so been to the hospital once per day for a week. But the progress seems good as we will jump over tomorrow and see how it heals in 2 days without cleaning.

The second surgery was a bigger mental hit then the first one. One of the things that really got to me was that I was able to get physically fit again just in time for the surgery. That was the plan all the time, to train hard and be on top performance so that the rehabilitation time would be shorter. But still, it gets to me. 16 days ago I was able to cycle and climb hills and now I just sit here and watch TV again.. I must not use my abdominal muscles for another 6 weeks to prevent complications.
Another mental thing is that I cry... I did that last time also, but it seems like the fact that I do have cancer is starting to get to me. But pretty much anything can trigger the tears, just from watching TV, listening to the radio or reading a book or magazine. I will have to learn to accept that I am affected I guess. Cancer is a big deal and I don't think that the reality really has hit me yet. But each day is a struggle to not let the feelings get the upper hand. I do not want to become a wreck. Focus on the small things, each little walk outdoors, every line coded on my game. Try to keep the mind occupied and body at rest. : )

Why I am writing this? Not to feel sorry for myself, but as a way to handle the situation and hopefully someone else out there in a similar situation can find this helpful as well. The human body is strong and hopefully I'll come out of this stronger as well. Plan for the worst and hope for the best!