tisdag 5 juni 2018

June Update 2018


Part of a series:
Another reminder of mortality
Day 4 - Tumor in my liver
First week - tumor in my liver
Second week - tumor in my liver
Third week with liver cancer
Liver cancer, surgery
6 weeks post-op, news time
Cancer update
Liver cancer, Post-op 2
June Update 2018

So another update. Noticed that I didn't post any 'My Current Plan' post for May, and I don't really have anything breaking for June.
Looking back I invested that the may building brick in the bank... And I did the same for June.

More important stuff then investing (that still needs to go on, but not the top priority in my head) is the cancer progress.

So, today it is 2 weeks and 1 day since I went into surgery for the second time this year. Hopefully they got the last part of the tumor this time... They were not 100% sure last time, hence the second surgery. I will not receive any news regarding that until the analysis is done in a couple of weeks.
In the meanwhile the cut is healing, a little worse complications on the actual cut compared to last time. Have 3 holes that do not want to heal, so been to the hospital once per day for a week. But the progress seems good as we will jump over tomorrow and see how it heals in 2 days without cleaning.

The second surgery was a bigger mental hit then the first one. One of the things that really got to me was that I was able to get physically fit again just in time for the surgery. That was the plan all the time, to train hard and be on top performance so that the rehabilitation time would be shorter. But still, it gets to me. 16 days ago I was able to cycle and climb hills and now I just sit here and watch TV again.. I must not use my abdominal muscles for another 6 weeks to prevent complications.
Another mental thing is that I cry... I did that last time also, but it seems like the fact that I do have cancer is starting to get to me. But pretty much anything can trigger the tears, just from watching TV, listening to the radio or reading a book or magazine. I will have to learn to accept that I am affected I guess. Cancer is a big deal and I don't think that the reality really has hit me yet. But each day is a struggle to not let the feelings get the upper hand. I do not want to become a wreck. Focus on the small things, each little walk outdoors, every line coded on my game. Try to keep the mind occupied and body at rest. : )

Why I am writing this? Not to feel sorry for myself, but as a way to handle the situation and hopefully someone else out there in a similar situation can find this helpful as well. The human body is strong and hopefully I'll come out of this stronger as well. Plan for the worst and hope for the best!



torsdag 24 maj 2018

Liver cancer, Post-op 2

Short update:
This time the surgery went well. Up on my feet the day after, no fever to speak of and fast recovery. I lost 4 liters of blood on the table, resupplied with 2 units of blood and some plasma.
Today, third day after they will remove the last few tubes and then I'll stay over the weekend for monitoring.
If the first time would have been like this, I wouldn't have been so nervous.
Hopefully this will keep up and that they got it all this time!

söndag 20 maj 2018

Cancer update,


Part of a series:
Another reminder of mortality
Day 4 - Tumor in my liver
First week - tumor in my liver
Second week - tumor in my liver
Third week with liver cancer
Liver cancer, surgery
6 weeks post-op, news time
Cancer update
Liver cancer, Post-op 2
June Update 2018

Time flies. With all the red days in May it is now finally time for my second surgery tomorrow morning.
2 days ago we went to the hospital to do the pre-operation procedure and meet the anesthetist and doctors. Bit smaller operation this time, still removing 1/4 of the liver but this time it is a side-slice.
Physically back to normal, training load this week was 5 hours on the bike. Not as strong as in December, but the time in the saddle was back. Hopefully leading to a faster recovery from this surgery.
Been working 50% for 5 weeks, sleeping an hour in the afternoon as my mind is processing continuously. Can't stop thinking about doing this all again. Takes quite a toll on the mind. Tried to focus on other things, like cycling, the house and gaming. Played through Far Cry 5 as you guys who follow my YouTube channel probably have noticed. Also learned a new programming language called F# as you following my coding blog have seen.
So, travel to Gothenburg this evening and to the hospital in the early morning.
No Olympic games on the TV this time, but luckily Giro d'Italia.
Until next time: just do what makes you happy!